I DON'T KNOW

17th JULY....

The most memorable day of my life. The day when I met the Love of my life. The day when I had been proposed by a guy who meant everyhing to me. He gave me all that love, care which I wanted from a guy. He was the first guy with whom I was so comfortable and could not live without. I was never able to hide things from him. I would express my feelings and thoughts to him in different forms. He had always been a right hand of mine. He used to nurture me like a kid and treat like a perfect gentlmen. Its really difficult to find a person like him in todays world. An innocent guy whose innocense reflects in his eyes. The purity of truth lie in his eyes. He can never fake to this world. He is a guy who has got a clean heart. A person with whom you can spent your entire time, you can never get bored with him. When we were together we enjoyed each and every moment of it and made the time really very special.

I still remember the day when I had received my first kissfrom him. We were not so close to each other at that time just had got feelings for each other. We used to be the two bodies dwilling in one soul. He has done a lot for me and has given me a lot in life. I'm lacking with words to thank him.

BUT a sudden turn came into our life, the time when I had to let him go.........Things suddenly all of a sudden went all wrong between us and we got seperated. For me it was as an end to my life, I was completely out of my mind and didn't know how to react on it. I was all shattered and broken. But for his happyness I had to move ahead. I started traeting him very meanly, rudely and was harsh at him just to create that hateness for me in him. I didn't even want him to take me as a freind cause maybe even there we would come up to no conclusion.

I know I will never be able to live without him but I don't want him to bare that pain again by getting back to me. I have never given given him happiness, have always taken him as well as things wrongly. The way he understood me I was never able to understand him. The amount of trust which he has on me I could never build that trust for him. I was never able to live upto his expectations because of which today I find him going away from me.

I just want to see him happy for that I'll do whatever I'll have to. I'll not mess his life anymore. He will always find me besides him whenever he'll be in need of a freind. But I will never interfare in his life. I know he amount of love that we have given to each other, can never be given to anyone else. I know he still loves me but...........

I don't know will I ever be able to create the same love for my soulmate. I don't know that will I be able to live without him. I don't know............................

One thing I know is that I'll be the most luckiest person on earth if I get another chance to make things better and to get along with him for the rest of my life. I wish to die in his arms.

I'LL KEEP LOVING YOU TILL THE END OF MY LIFE AS YOU ARE THE FIRST AND THE LAST LOVE OF MY LIFE. YOU ARE THE ONLY LOVE OF MY LIFE......

REALLY MISSING YOU AND THE MOMENTS SPENT WITH YOU......

PLEASE COME BACK DEAR

REALLY NEED YOU