MISSING U

In my small heart there is so much of space that I can fit as much as people I want to fit in it. But it consists of 2 special people one is my bhaiya and the other is my love.

My Bhaiya........what should I say about him? I get speechless when it comes to a point of describing bhaiya.He is a person on whom one can easily rely on. He was the one who could never see tears in my eyes. My one tear used to make him cry as well. He really loved me a lot. He was the one who taught me how to crawl and how to walk. He showed me the path which leads towards the destination of life. I used to be his lady luck or should I say his lucky charm. Things and time were so jolly and we were so happy in it. Bhaiya could never see me hurt. He could not bare my pain. Even if I used to get a small scratch or a cut he used to panick. He would mess up the entire place to cure my pain. He used to feed me , teach me, take me around and spend time with me. He made me realise the actual importance of life. He was a very jolly person who had always been there in each and every hurdle of life..........but a day came that changed our lives completely.

27th December:
A day when all of us were so happy because bhaiya was going to come to Kathmandu for his Engagement Ceremony. All of us were so much busy preparing for the ceremony. It was 9 at night I had last spoken to bhaiya about how he is feeling and how much is he excited about everything. Suddenly a turn took place in every one of our lives. It was 11:30 at night when bhaiya heard a knock on his door. He thought maybe someone might have come to visit him as Delhi always had a night life. Without asking bhaiya opened the door and he found his old staff standing on the door with some of his freinds. When bhaiya asked him what he was there for and what does he want he just pushed bhaiya and entered the house. Bhaiya used to live all alone. Bhaiya kept on asking him what he wanted but he did not say anything, he just went inside the room and took all the cash and other things from the place and walked away with his freinds but as he reached down suddenly something stroke his mind. He said his freinds that this guy knows me ans if he reports it to the police then we'll be into big trouble. Then he again came back to bhaiya's apartment and tied bhaiya on the chair, there in front of him laid a tool box from which he took a weapon and just seperated bhaiyas head from his body. He was such a big devil because he had killed bhaiya with so much pain. He then placed my bhaiya's body on the bed and covered it and he placed my bhaiya's head on the chair and vanished from there. I still cannot forget that night, the day when suddenly everything had just been snatched away from me. No one said me about it for a long period of time, then one day i asked my nani about what has happened to bhaiya is he all right I had always been said a lie that bhaiya slipped in the bathroom and got hurt that's it, but one day I heard my nani talking to someone about it and that was the time when i actually broke. I could not handle myself. I went all blank and did not speak up till weeks. I had become like a dummy placed in a museum. No single word from my mouth, no single tear from my eyes, I was like finished completely.

I really had a great belief in god but after all this I just starting cursing god for snatching away my life from me. I always used to curse god by saying that why did he take my bhaiya away from me and used to ask him to send to bhaiya as well. God please give me my bhaiya back. Life has really become very difiicult for me without him. I really wish to go where my bhaiya is.

Really missing you a lot Bhaiya. Please come back your Shona is waiting for you................
LOV U DA...................