My Jaan............My Life............. A person who brought back my life. He was the one whom I met for the first time with a huge fight. We never used to talk to each other properly. We were always rude with each other and always used to fight for some or the other reason. I used to tease him by the name of my freind and instead of my freind I used to give him miss calls. This was how we started talking to each other. Through that one miss call we turned out to be such good freinds that survival became hard for us without each other. I was the first girl with whom he has ever spoken so comfortably. We used to share each and every small thing with each other. We were never comfortable with anyone else till today so much as we were with each other.
It was our dashain break when he had gone to bangalore to spend his vacation with his sisters. When he came back he had to finish off with number of assignments. So we helped him and one day at my brother's place he misplaced his maths assignment for which I had been blamed and for that he had even slapped me. But I did not mind at all I don't know why, instead I made a project for him waking the entire night. He is a person who can be believed blindly. We then had become really very good freinds and this was the time when i actually started having feelings for him. We used to go out together and spend a lot of time together.
It was our school annual function where I really wanted to perform with him, so I asked him for it and it was so sweet of him for me he danced with he. We performed together in the annual function. It was great the time was awesome. We used to have lots of fun and we used to go to number of places together. This was the time when he hugged me and kissed me for the first time. We used to go for tutions together which in itself had a different experience. We most of the time used to reach half an hour before everyone else and used to spent time together blabbering and blabbering nonstop. It was so much fun to be with him. He was a person who gave me a new life. He taught me the importance of life and brought back smile on my face. He turned my life into the world of Love and Beauty. I can never thank him and forget whatever he has done for me to bring happiness in my life.
17th July:
The most special, important and valuable day of our life. The day when we shared our feelings with each other. The day when he had proposed me at 11:30 at night. This is really a very special day for me which has changed my life completely. We asked each other about number of things and made each other understand and made each other capable enough to face the future. He has given me so much of love that no one till today has given me. I really love him a lot more than anything else in this world. He could never ever bare a small scratch on me, he used to get so much tensed and panicked whenever he used to see me upset or in pain. He always did things that would make me happy, that would bring a smile on my face. He could never see tears in my eyes.
There are endless memories that we have spent together which cannot be all disclosed here. Thank you so much honey for coming into my life and making it so beautiful. Thank You for making me and my life so much special and precious. It is really hard for me to survive without him.
LOVE U Honey.
Friday, April 10, 2009
MISSING U
In my small heart there is so much of space that I can fit as much as people I want to fit in it. But it consists of 2 special people one is my bhaiya and the other is my love.
My Bhaiya........what should I say about him? I get speechless when it comes to a point of describing bhaiya.He is a person on whom one can easily rely on. He was the one who could never see tears in my eyes. My one tear used to make him cry as well. He really loved me a lot. He was the one who taught me how to crawl and how to walk. He showed me the path which leads towards the destination of life. I used to be his lady luck or should I say his lucky charm. Things and time were so jolly and we were so happy in it. Bhaiya could never see me hurt. He could not bare my pain. Even if I used to get a small scratch or a cut he used to panick. He would mess up the entire place to cure my pain. He used to feed me , teach me, take me around and spend time with me. He made me realise the actual importance of life. He was a very jolly person who had always been there in each and every hurdle of life..........but a day came that changed our lives completely.
27th December:
A day when all of us were so happy because bhaiya was going to come to Kathmandu for his Engagement Ceremony. All of us were so much busy preparing for the ceremony. It was 9 at night I had last spoken to bhaiya about how he is feeling and how much is he excited about everything. Suddenly a turn took place in every one of our lives. It was 11:30 at night when bhaiya heard a knock on his door. He thought maybe someone might have come to visit him as Delhi always had a night life. Without asking bhaiya opened the door and he found his old staff standing on the door with some of his freinds. When bhaiya asked him what he was there for and what does he want he just pushed bhaiya and entered the house. Bhaiya used to live all alone. Bhaiya kept on asking him what he wanted but he did not say anything, he just went inside the room and took all the cash and other things from the place and walked away with his freinds but as he reached down suddenly something stroke his mind. He said his freinds that this guy knows me ans if he reports it to the police then we'll be into big trouble. Then he again came back to bhaiya's apartment and tied bhaiya on the chair, there in front of him laid a tool box from which he took a weapon and just seperated bhaiyas head from his body. He was such a big devil because he had killed bhaiya with so much pain. He then placed my bhaiya's body on the bed and covered it and he placed my bhaiya's head on the chair and vanished from there. I still cannot forget that night, the day when suddenly everything had just been snatched away from me. No one said me about it for a long period of time, then one day i asked my nani about what has happened to bhaiya is he all right I had always been said a lie that bhaiya slipped in the bathroom and got hurt that's it, but one day I heard my nani talking to someone about it and that was the time when i actually broke. I could not handle myself. I went all blank and did not speak up till weeks. I had become like a dummy placed in a museum. No single word from my mouth, no single tear from my eyes, I was like finished completely.
I really had a great belief in god but after all this I just starting cursing god for snatching away my life from me. I always used to curse god by saying that why did he take my bhaiya away from me and used to ask him to send to bhaiya as well. God please give me my bhaiya back. Life has really become very difiicult for me without him. I really wish to go where my bhaiya is.
Really missing you a lot Bhaiya. Please come back your Shona is waiting for you................
LOV U DA...................
My Bhaiya........what should I say about him? I get speechless when it comes to a point of describing bhaiya.He is a person on whom one can easily rely on. He was the one who could never see tears in my eyes. My one tear used to make him cry as well. He really loved me a lot. He was the one who taught me how to crawl and how to walk. He showed me the path which leads towards the destination of life. I used to be his lady luck or should I say his lucky charm. Things and time were so jolly and we were so happy in it. Bhaiya could never see me hurt. He could not bare my pain. Even if I used to get a small scratch or a cut he used to panick. He would mess up the entire place to cure my pain. He used to feed me , teach me, take me around and spend time with me. He made me realise the actual importance of life. He was a very jolly person who had always been there in each and every hurdle of life..........but a day came that changed our lives completely.
27th December:
A day when all of us were so happy because bhaiya was going to come to Kathmandu for his Engagement Ceremony. All of us were so much busy preparing for the ceremony. It was 9 at night I had last spoken to bhaiya about how he is feeling and how much is he excited about everything. Suddenly a turn took place in every one of our lives. It was 11:30 at night when bhaiya heard a knock on his door. He thought maybe someone might have come to visit him as Delhi always had a night life. Without asking bhaiya opened the door and he found his old staff standing on the door with some of his freinds. When bhaiya asked him what he was there for and what does he want he just pushed bhaiya and entered the house. Bhaiya used to live all alone. Bhaiya kept on asking him what he wanted but he did not say anything, he just went inside the room and took all the cash and other things from the place and walked away with his freinds but as he reached down suddenly something stroke his mind. He said his freinds that this guy knows me ans if he reports it to the police then we'll be into big trouble. Then he again came back to bhaiya's apartment and tied bhaiya on the chair, there in front of him laid a tool box from which he took a weapon and just seperated bhaiyas head from his body. He was such a big devil because he had killed bhaiya with so much pain. He then placed my bhaiya's body on the bed and covered it and he placed my bhaiya's head on the chair and vanished from there. I still cannot forget that night, the day when suddenly everything had just been snatched away from me. No one said me about it for a long period of time, then one day i asked my nani about what has happened to bhaiya is he all right I had always been said a lie that bhaiya slipped in the bathroom and got hurt that's it, but one day I heard my nani talking to someone about it and that was the time when i actually broke. I could not handle myself. I went all blank and did not speak up till weeks. I had become like a dummy placed in a museum. No single word from my mouth, no single tear from my eyes, I was like finished completely.
I really had a great belief in god but after all this I just starting cursing god for snatching away my life from me. I always used to curse god by saying that why did he take my bhaiya away from me and used to ask him to send to bhaiya as well. God please give me my bhaiya back. Life has really become very difiicult for me without him. I really wish to go where my bhaiya is.
Really missing you a lot Bhaiya. Please come back your Shona is waiting for you................
LOV U DA...................
Friday, April 3, 2009
THANK YOU FOR BEING THERE
"There isn't any formula or method. you learn to love by loving". Love is something that gives a different feel to a person. It is something that can change one's life completely. I feel for myself being very lucky as I've received love from everyone. There are so many people in this world who need me, who are there for me, who care for me, but hope and expectation has been pulling be towards certain .........
I realy love my dad a lot; its really difficult for me to see life without my dad. He has always been there with me in need and has always supported me. At times he has even been rude to me and has scolded me but I never took things at heart because whatever he did or does is for my betterment. He has always made me realize the importance of life and has always helped mebegin my day with a new thought that really does help me a lot in understanding and handling things. Papa has never kept any kind of restriction on us, he only says onr thing that is live your life to its fullest but at the right place and at the right time, but we are the ones who don't listen to them.
It is true that we realize our mistakes after making a mistake. I realized about my mistake at a very later phase of life. The time to apologize for the thing had already passed away and I had already got carried away with the thing; but today i would really like to say sorry to my dad and would like to apologize for breaking his trust which would be for the first and the last time. The mistake will never be repeated again ever. At a certain phase of time I used to be his ANGEL his best daughter, I used to be his life but because of my one mistake I remain no more the same for papa. He still does love me a lot but that trust factor has vanished somewhere. But now I would really like to owe that trust factor again because I know my dad is the only person who can believe me and trust me without any fear. No one else is there in this world who can give me so much of love that my dad has given me and no one can ever trust me as much as my dad trusts me.
Thank You Papa for giving me such a great life and for bringing me into this world. I would really like to wish to take rebirth as your daughter in each and every incarnation of life.
LOVE U DAD.
I realy love my dad a lot; its really difficult for me to see life without my dad. He has always been there with me in need and has always supported me. At times he has even been rude to me and has scolded me but I never took things at heart because whatever he did or does is for my betterment. He has always made me realize the importance of life and has always helped mebegin my day with a new thought that really does help me a lot in understanding and handling things. Papa has never kept any kind of restriction on us, he only says onr thing that is live your life to its fullest but at the right place and at the right time, but we are the ones who don't listen to them.
It is true that we realize our mistakes after making a mistake. I realized about my mistake at a very later phase of life. The time to apologize for the thing had already passed away and I had already got carried away with the thing; but today i would really like to say sorry to my dad and would like to apologize for breaking his trust which would be for the first and the last time. The mistake will never be repeated again ever. At a certain phase of time I used to be his ANGEL his best daughter, I used to be his life but because of my one mistake I remain no more the same for papa. He still does love me a lot but that trust factor has vanished somewhere. But now I would really like to owe that trust factor again because I know my dad is the only person who can believe me and trust me without any fear. No one else is there in this world who can give me so much of love that my dad has given me and no one can ever trust me as much as my dad trusts me.
Thank You Papa for giving me such a great life and for bringing me into this world. I would really like to wish to take rebirth as your daughter in each and every incarnation of life.
LOVE U DAD.
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